COMEBACK

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Hey guys ! Guess who's making a comeback ? lol okay whatever. i know its been a very long time i neglected this blog. Well, as usual i was so busy & i got one's hands full with life commitments & blah blah blah. So somehow tonight, i have this urge to update my blog & share with all the readers (kalau wujud la) about my new life, i mean my new experience. First & foremost, to make this entry is comprehensible to yall, im gonna write it in manglish. Okay ? (p/s: this is a gif story so if you want a better effect, pls ensure that you have a very strong internet connection.)

Well to be very honest, aku pun dah lupa camna nak start entry ni but i'll try. So lepas keluar result spm bulan 3 last year, i got a few tawaran from asasi, matrikulasi & many more but then i decided to go to matrikulasi although the location is hell far away from my home. Memula masa nak check tu, punyalah berharap berdoa nak matrik penang sebab dekat lol but then lepas checked, dapat matrik pahang which is located at Gambang, Pahang and i was like

WHERE THE HELL IS THAT ?!?!? seumur hidup aku tak pernah dengar tempat nama gambang lepastu nak kena stay kat situ untuk setahun. Can you feel me ? Pastu buatlah research pasal matrik pahang ni & dengar memacam cerita ada tasiklah & guess what, i also did a research pasal horror story kat matrik ni lol. Hantu sebelah la kak pon lah. Blah blah blah, daftar la kat matrik tu.

Lalu bermulah hidupku di kolej matrikulasi pahang. Cewah ayat kemain. Minggu pertama tu memang padat gila sebab ada program orientasi dengan bekas student plus dengan tension sebab homesick. Rasa cam nak tikam je semorang yang ada kat situ. Dahla aku ni jenis susah nak cari kawan. Jalan pun sorang-sorang memang sadis gila hidupku di waktu tersebut. Nak luah kesedihan pun takdak orang nak dengar. Plus, im not a very friendly person. Jumpak orang je

Habis ja first week tu maka startlah minggu kuliah. First time masuk kuliah rasa excited pun ada, nervous pun ada. Yalah tengok ramai orang, pelbagai jenis, pelbagai ragam. Teringat balik waktu mentor mentee yang first sekali, ada lebih kurang 15 students diletakkan di bawah seorang mentor. Aku dapat puan apatah kejadah tak ingat nama dia. Lect english orangnya. So kitorang pun buatlah aktiviti ice breaking perkenalkan diri masing. Yang si mentor ni dok speaking english 24/7. Aku pun okaylah dari dia cakap loghat lain pulak en mampus satu haram pun tak faham. And when it came for my turn to introduce myself, aku cakap english uolls hahaha. Bukan nak berlagak. Aku ni duduk kat penang dekat 17 tahun. Nak cakap kayel rasa cam hipokrit gila. Rasa cam tampaq ja mulut ni. Lalu gunalah alternatif lain yang entah apa-apa. Reflect action agaknya. Then, ada budak yang introduce pasal diri dia pastu cerita pasal parents & burst into tears & i was like

Blablabla, so lets talk about classmates. Memula masa dalam kuliah i saw a few guys walked in & i was like "bajetnya dak dak ni" but it turned out that all of them are my classmates haha. Whoops pardon my first impression. Dalam kelas cam biasa masa sem 1. Nobody wants to sit besides me in class, i repeat. NOBODY. i dont know samada aku ni yang isolate diri or they just dont want to sit beside me in classs bcs my facial expression was like this

i admit, sem1 aku memang decided taknak campur dengan orang sebab aku pegang prinsip, "kita nak score 4flat bukannya diorang ni boleh sumbang apa-apa pun" so whats the point of mixing myself dengan semorang & i dont come to matric to make friend. Memang sem1 tu kalau pergi mana-mana mesti sumbat earphones dalam telinga sampai ada orang panggil bajetlah, budak earphones la apalah. Tapi aku tak kisah pun, i've my own prinsip. Bila budak kelas buat majlis bukak puasa ke apa ke, aku memang tak join. "Adin jom bukak puasa sekali ?"

 Tak tahu kenapa kekadang aku rasa betulka apa yang aku buat ni. Tapi masa nak dekat hujung sem1 tu barulah hati aku ni terbukak untuk approve semorang dalam hidupku. Ecewah ayat takleh blah. Barulah nak sembang dengan orang walaupun rasa awkward gila tahap cimpanzi.

Terlupa pulak nak introduce classmates aku, sebenarnya classmates aku ada 22 orang including myself. Ketua, syazwan & diikuti izil, shafiq, qahhar, mirul, mirri, jifong, shan, reenesh & girls, sabrina, farah, e-g, saloma, ana, ani, silah, wani, mei, dalila. Cukuplah kot 22 orang idk. Masa first sem tu, aku dgn classmates memang tak rapat gila. Kalau selisih rasanya kalau ada lalat lalu sebelah pun boleh dengar bunyi lalat tu. Itulah betapa hebatnya keawkwardan aku dengan classmates. Orang yang first aku perasan ialah e-g. Teringat masa syazwan tanya pasal yuran kelas & she shouted "saya tidak setuju" & at the moment, tetiba ada instinct dalam minda "this girl must have a great personality". Serious lol. After that, farah & nadia aka saloma. Teringat lagi (kuat benor ingatanku) waktu nadia mesej cakap dia nadia & i was like "who the hell is nadia" pastu baru sedar ohh classmates rupanya. Then, shafiq. Tetiba datang sentuh rambut aku & said "rambut hang ada masalah ka ?". yknow i was like ((silently)) "how dare you touch my hair nobody's dare to touch my hair yknow how long would it takes aku nak buat rambut ni how many wax i wasted for this hair mak aku pun tak berani sentuh rambut aku you're so dead"

i met a lot of new people in this place. Makin ramai, makin seronok. I know i was wrong at first but then lama-lama i realized, the more people we met, the more things we learnt. indeed ive learnt so many things in this place. This is all for now, i'll write more things about this place later. Toodles